Today, I spent all day inside. I have a headache. I think it is a bout with cabin fever. I really can not spend a whole day inside. I guess I should atleast get out and take a walk or something, but is was raining today. I don’t know – I just knew if I went out, I would spend money and sometimes I have to refrain. I did get lots of sleep and I am more relaxed for the workweek. Later in the day, I took down my two trees and Christmas stuff. That stuff being up was stressing me out (I was constantly worrying about having to take it down). I did clean some and I feel accomplished, though it is far from finished.
So, Molly calls me and asks me to seriously consider moving to the Ville. It’s not that I don’t like Louisville, it’s just that I don’t want to spend the rest of my life in Kentucky, when I know there are a lot of opportunities out there for me. The funny thing is that I am not seeking out those opportunities at the moment and I am being stagnant. That is not a good thing. I really need to update my portfolio and sent my crap out for jobs, but it is all so nervewracking. I just need to suck it up and get on with it. I want to own my own place and set some roots. I can’t meet any decent guys here and though Lexington is ok, it sometimes feels like I am bored with it. There is just nothing here that excites me to discover anymore and I def. don’t want to get a condo or house here, with my indecisiveness about job stuff being the way it is right now.