Who is least likely to respond?

That was the question I read with my name next to it. Doesn’t that suck? I was reading one of those questioneers like the one I posted on here last week and that is what I read. That I’m least likely to respond. I mean, maybe that means I’m an e-mail slacker, but I don’t really think so. I think it might mean that I’m a bad friend and I think that sucks. I don’t mean to be. I just get so caught up in my own little world or the issue at the time. The latest has been Arianna’s wedding – been planning and preparing for it – doing little things that turn out to be bigger things, and that is ok, but I don’t mean to ignore others in the process. I just get so wrapped up in things like that.

Then I talked tonight to another friend, and her and another friend were talking about how I hadn’t called in a while or I hadn’t e-mailed. Man, this really bums me out. I need to really try to be a better friend.

My friend Jessica said I always had something going on, but that is not true. There are plenty of weekends filled with sleep and tv and me going to eat by myself. I can’t say that I like doing this, but I have for the longest time been a loner of sorts. I partially feel that others are busy and that I don’t want to bother them and then I sometimes just don’t make the effort, cause I don’t feel like talking at the moment. I guess this is another reason to explain why I never meet people of the opposite sex, I just don’t put myself out there – and this is a bad thing. I have plenty of “me” time. I need to get out of this cocoon…sometimes let others know I’m lonely, express myself, tell myself that not crafting for a few hours is a good thing.

We’ll see what happens.


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