It is a month into summer, and once again, I stated this summer that I would like this to be the summer….

The summer that I venture out…
The summer that I meet someone and do fun, outdoor things…
The summer that I go to concerts…
The summer that I stay up late and look at stars…
The summer that I have a truly great vacation…
The summer filled with cookouts and friends…

I guess I really need Dr. Phil around. I guess the things that I think in my mind that I want to happen won’t happen unless I get off my butt, and organize and prepare myself for them to happen.

I guess I get too caught up in the everyday. Going here and there, doing daily odd chores and activities, internet, tv watching…I guess I just don’t look at the big picture of how I make make my dreams a reality. It’s hard, it really is. Since I was a teenager, I’ve had dreams of great summers…fabulous getaways (like the trip my friends are on right now in NYC without me) and rendevous. I guess back then, I didn’t necc. have the power to make some of those things happen, but I do now. I guess, as an adult, I need to be proactive and make stuff happen! But, when do I get to the point where I put these thoughts into action? I have a lot of issues in my life like that…I have good intentions. I start off on the right path, veer a little bit, and ultimately end up back in the direction I have always been going. When is this going to change for me?

A little too much introspection for the night. It’s out there…it’s said, it’s done. But it is a good thing that I think about these things. I have to question where I’m going and that’s what will start the change.